The Last Debate...

War is come... The results for this second semester of the first year of the UCSI Pharmacy programme came out 5 days earlier... Many need to take supplementary for Peripheral Nervous System & Pharmacotherapy, Organic Chemistry II and Biostatistics for Pharmacy... Quite a number failed also...

On Thurday night, Ah San called me and told me that examination results are out! I went and checked my results and my results were not good (as stated in Kantui Kantui blog)... So, the next morning, 8 a.m., I took a bus back to KL from Penang. UVTSS (Sing Shia), upon my request, came back to Cheras earlier to settle her supplementary application. Mickey Mouse (Wen Chian) came to Cheras on Sunday, while the White Lady Sue Zin came on Monday.

I reached Pudu at 1:00 p.m. and went straight to Bandar Tasik Selatan. When I reach Bandar Tasik Selatan LRT station, I tried to get a cab but suey! There was not even a single cab! Then I saw a van with the UCSI logo and I jumped in. Jay Chow (Soon Yee) SMSed me asking where I was at that moment as she was already in college... Then I asked UVTSS to speed up to go to college from her house...

When I reached the college, I straight away went to the School of Pharmacy to find Jay Chow already waiting there. UVTSS, as usual, was late. Then we went into the room of the Cold-Blooded Animal... Dr. Yeong... now she was really strict... she would not give me even a chance to continue doing Pharmacy even though I failed only one subject. According to her, since I did not met the minimum requirement for Mathematics at STPM level, and still fail Biostatistics, it was proven that I could not do Maths... So I am terminated from the programme as stated in the condition.

I asked for her advice and she asked me to appeal from the VP of Academics, Mr. Chin Peng Kit... I appealed, and he said he would let me know the outcome on Wednesday. So what I could do is just wait. Ms. Wong Kuan Yau suggested us to give feedback since more than half of the class failed the subject called Peripheral Nervous System & Pharmacotherapy. Much are having a hell of their time in the course. I was hoping that this feedback thing could actually help save me and other conditional offer students that failed in one subject or more.

On Monday, Ah San asked us to meet up with her in college in the morning. Mickey Mouse wanted to settle her things earlier as her brother needs to use the car before noon, so UVTSS and I followed Mickey Mouse to college earlier to settle her things and we met Ah San for brunch there. We talked about our plan and everybody seemed to have their own moody time. Gloomy was the gathering. Later, we went back to college while Mickey Mouse went home. Crystal would come with Selyn and Mei Mei to settle their things also...

We met the White Lady there and Chyi Ing also. Then we settled down at one of the tables outside block C and chatted. Then I left them for a moment to see Dr. Thet and Ms. Saw to seek for counsel... after much talk, I left Ms. Saw's room as Crystal had reached. I went out and proceeded to the School of Pharmacy. I saw Huii Zhong in the School of Medicine. I did not call her, I just acknowledge her because I wasn't happy that time. In the School of Pharmacy, I saw Hou Boon there. I told him everything.

Crystal was looking for the Cold-Blooded Animal, but the animal was on leave, so she went straight away to appeal from Mr. Chin as she was on conditional offer and failed PNS & Pharmacotherapy. Mr. Chin didn't give us a slightest hope also as he mentioned about our chances of being exempted from the condition was really very slim... we did not put much hopes in this appeal and we did whatever we could to be exempted from the condition. I collected feebacks desperately. UVTSS helped as well.

Feedbacks came from many students. Most are protective on the students side but some are not. Many were not afraid that their identity is known but there are several who are afraid of being penalised. SAO PEI laa! scared until like that... cek ak iao siu!!! coward! sok thao oo kuai!!! LAN CIAO! tui teng sua la!!! anyway, the feedbacks proved to be not much of use. But since I would no longer be in that school, I would create a havoc before leaving it, HAVOC!!!

On Wednesday, the battle begins. The troop, led by UVTSS, consisted of Mickey Mouse, Jay Chow, Sexy Baby (Poh Leen), the Gentleman (Jivan) and I. We went into the room of the Cold-Blooded Animal and was about to begin the battle but I was the first casualty to be dropped dead. The animal chased me out of the room as she said that I would not be joining them the next semester. I left the room volutarily. I looked at the time and it was the first half of 12 p.m.

With nothing to do, I went to Dr. Thet. She asked me how was the outcome and I said I had not seen Mr. Chin yet. However, with reference to what the animal told me earlier, I had a foresight that I would not be able to continue the course. So we talked about my future plannings: about Chemistry-based courses and other options. After one hour talking to Dr. Thet, I proceeded to Ms. Wong Kuan Yau's and Ms. Saw Jun Tze's room to talk about it. I talked to them about my plans and about some other crap. Then they asked whether would I like to see Mr. Chin now or later, and they asked me to make an appointment to meet up with him in person. I made an appointment with him at 3:30 p.m.

The troop came back to Ms. Wong's room with a defeated look after a 2-hour debate with the Cold-Blooded Animal, and things really looked vain. It was time for me to meet up with Mr. Chin and I left the room and proceeded to block A to meet up with Mr. Chin. I walked there calmly at first but approaching the chancellory, my heart suddenly pounded like hell. The pace was of that I never felt before. I suddenly found myself praying very hard, harder than I had done previously. However, upon entering his room, all was calm. the feeling of heaviness suddenly left me...

As I had expected,the first thing Mr. Chin told me was he did not have good news for me and I knew exactly what it meant. I just made my last stand and left the room after that, walking back to block C, holding the letter of reject. I felt nothing. I suddenly had no feelings. Ascending the staircase to the School of Pharmacy, I still had no feelings. When I reached Dr. Thet's room, I found that she was not there. So I thought, maybe I would come back later. However, I saw Dr. Thet emerging at the corridoor. So we went into the room and we settled at her table and talked.

I showed her the letter and just smiled. She smiled back after reading the letter and told me that there was nothing to be sad about and it was, actually a good thing. I had not any feelings but my eyes started to tear. I cannot control my tear glands. Tears just flowed out uncontrolably. Dr. Thet was like saying: 'No, Desmond, don't, Desmond, no.' However hard I tried to keep my tears from flowing out, i cannot do so... There was no feeling, and I just found myself sobbing. Then Dr. Thet left her seat and came over to me. She said: 'Aiyo, Desmond, you're a man, how can you cry? Aiyo, a student crying in front of a lecturer.' She patted me on my head gently, and I felt better. Then she had to leave for block A to do something. So I left the School of Pharmacy as a student for the last time with her.

I walked back to the School of Medicine to see Ms. Wong & Ms. Saw. I opened the door and the first person I saw was Ms. Saw. That time, my eyes were already watery. I went in the room, closed the door, and showed the letter to UVTSS, Mickey Mouse and Jay Chow. They quickly had a look at it and passed it on to Ms. Wong and Ms. Saw. In here, I was crying (instead of sobbing when I was in Dr. Thet's room). There was a sudden silence. A dark cloud passed by in the room. All of them fell silent... their eyes either met each others or the floor only. This time, I felt sad... really really very sad... I'm sad of leaving the CB-Sakai family after clicking with them so well... After going through the hardships in Pharmacy... after one year... I had to leave... After long, finally I have found my family in Pharmacy, I had to leave them...

I met Dr. Zabidah before I leave with my 'family' and told her everything. Then I asked for leave. I found that UVTSS, Mickey Mouse and Jay Chow were no longer in Ms. Wong's room. Then I left the School of Medicine, the only Haven I a have found in UCSI for the last time as a student there. I found them standing outside waiting for me to go have lunch together... I later learnt that Jay Chow cried... When I learnt this, I was so touched... Never before had anyone shed a tear for me for leaving... Knowing this really brings tears to my eyes... I cried all the way in Jay Chow's car to the Blue Dragon Thai restaurant... I never thought I would...