半醉半清醒

人讲这世情著爱看乎透
一世人呒好一直辽

This week is one of the stupidest week in my life. I am glad I managed to finish my impromptu speech with a smooth hearthbeat. This week, I did not go back to Semeling, not even a day. AIMST is really breaking my heart. I was just trying to make friends with a "senior" (senior by education level in AIMST only, not by age... nobody in Foundation Studies is as old as I am, neither are they older... :(...)and he ignored me! Never before have I seen one so stuck up! I can say it aloud here as I don't think he will ever read my blog. Neither will any AIMST fellow students... Why do these problems rise up in AIMST? Why in the North? Why at places near Penang Island that I love so much? I think I cannot blame him also as my way of approaching him was not to his liking (yeah... refer to where he grew up then you'll know why... :(...) It is very hard to make friends here in AIMST... CB! I'm counting down the days...

This morning, AIMST held a Merdeka Celebration and the rehersal was yesterday, so I planned to come back to Penang on Thursday and return on Sunday, but since I asked some of my friends to come to Penang, then my plan changed to returning to SP on Saturday. However it wasn't good news for my mother who called on Wednesday night. I was sleeping when she called and she got angry and scolded me because I slept at about 6 to 8 p.m.. I overheard my father commenting also! Wei, papa mama, can't I sleep if I am tired? Then when I spoke to her about my home-coming together with my friends, she felt offended! She asked me: 'Oh, you return home only when your friends are coming...' You see, she doesn't understand me at all! She has feelings, no doubt, but do I not have feelings also? That is the reason I seldom go back to Penang. To be scolded? No! I would rather rot in SP. My love for my parents are getting more and more diluted nowadays.

I drove home from SP yesterday afternoon after having a filling porridge prepared by my aunt. I drove slowly via the north-south highway and it was the first time i drove at an average of 90 km/h as I had time and I do not feel like reaching home. When I reached Penang Bridge, and as I approached the island, I suddenly realised how beautiful the island was that day. If I wasn't driving, then I would had taken a snap. I couldn't really describe it but the sun ray was just nice making the island green and the waters blue. I finally had that kind of homely feeling. However, some of my friends disappoint me by cancelling their trip to Penang. I was so enthusiastic and went throught emotional moments just to bring them here but all was lost...

This morning, I went to Penang Free School. I saw Ms. Koay Suan See and Ms. Lim Siew Hong there with Ms. Go and Ms. Tan. After chatting with them, I went to Tesco (of all places) and I realised, it was really different from Tesco Sg Petani. It seems brighter here in Penang and classier... ahahaha... just psychological effect... Then returned home. At night, I went out with my cousin to Tesco again and later, to Jelutong Market to have my dinner there. It was quite nice to be in Penang actually, but not home. I should appreciate it but I really cannot. I'm through with it. As usual, the nightlife in KL haunts me again... Sue Zin! Wen Chian! Soon Yee! Sia Chin! Sing Shia! I want to go back and bring you all out to dinner and supper together! I want to go to Liquid together with you! I want to stroll in Bandar Tun Razak's Park! I want to sing K together! I want to de-shell prawns for you! I want to go MV together! I want to see leng zai together with you all!


你讲咱对爱呒通稍计较
搏感情著爱寸步留
每一暗总有人有泪无地流
也总有人将真心锁著著
人讲这世情著爱看乎透
一世人呒好一直辽
每一暗总有人呒敢过情关口
参像咱幸福还搁块风中飘渺
啊心块半醉半清醒
自己最明了
定定心事若到嘴口
又搁掺酒吞落喉
啊朋友当作阮是无聊
阮拢笑笑呒敢哮
爱情是无疼嫌无够
受伤又过头