Purity...

Purity...

Friday, June 27, 2008

Love Quote...

Today, I came across a quote about love. The quote gives a rather good & beautiful illustration about the nature of love. Let me share it with you...

"Love is when you give half of yourself and allow that half to be
filled up by another, who in turn, takes the half of you that you left
behind. When you feel like gravity no longer holds you down, but they
do. When you see them, a million thoughts race through your mind, and
there are a million things you want to say, but the best to can
manage is a nod and a smile, a wave, or a simple 'hey', because if
you try to say anything more, you know you will choke up. When you see
them, you feel like your heart is beating so fast it's going to fly
away from you. In a way, it does. It flies to them. When you feel like
you are so full of happiness, you feel like your going to start
flying, but the only thing keeping you down is that if you were to fly
away, you fear they couldn't fly with you."


my life 一直在等待
空荡的口袋
想在里面放一份爱
why 总是被打败
真的好无奈
其实我实实在在
不管帅不帅

想要找回来 (想要找回来)
自己的节拍 (自己的节拍)
所以这一次
我要勇敢大声说出来

期待期待你发现我的爱
无所不在我自然而然的关怀
你的存在 (你的存在)
心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

我猜你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯靠越近越明白
不要走开 (不要走开)
幸福的开始就是
放手去爱

想要找回来 (想要找回来)
自己的节拍 (自己的节拍)
所以这一次
我要勇敢大声说出来

期待期待你发现我的爱
无所不在我自然而然的关怀
你的存在 (你的存在)
心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

我猜你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯靠越近越明白
不要走开 (不要走开)
幸福的开始就是
放手去爱

幸福的开始就是放手去爱...

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Back to School...

After having a 3-month break, most people would have no mood to go back to college, especially when you have some difficult subjects to follow & also, when you have to deal with some types of people. For me, I'm unusually quite excited to start this new semester. Maybe its because of my age factor that made me think so. I'm old. No more time should be lost...

Well, the new semester, as usual for every year 1 semester 2, would be tougher than the previous one. I had to take 7 subjects. First, there is this stupid Malaysian Studies that I had to repeat thanks to my laziness two years ago. Well, this time, my attendance had improved compared to 2 years ago. The lecturer this time is Ms. Wee, a Johorean. I've heard many comments about her, most of them coming from one of my best friend, & I find what my best friend told me to be quite true.

Next, is General Psychology. It should be an interesting subject, but the lectures were boring. All we had was presentation, presentation, presentation, & presentation. Then we have this English for Specific Academic Purposes (ESAP), which is conducted by Mr. Raj. It should be an english course with relations to the pharmacy profession. Nothing much I can comment here as I find it to be dry.

Core subjects are the ones that are giving me the headache. Microbiology is my least feared subject as it is not really that difficult & I had some basic foundation before coming into AIMST. However, the foundation was not strong enough, so I still had to worry about this. This subject is coordinated by Dr. Girija Kumari, a.k.a. the Witch (if I had not known her & had seen her by the roadside, I would have thought that she works as the road-sweeper amah). Another Kumari (last sem physiology was by Dr. Nagaraja Kumari). Typical Indian accent she had in her spoken English, shaking her head left & right, until I also 'pening' following her head swaying here & there. Other lecturers include Prof. Hacharan Singh Sidhu a.k.a. Harry Porter lecturer (he looks like Prof. Snape), Dr. P.K. Rajesh a.k.a. Keadilan or anti-humans (his initials are PKR, & he seems to be siding the microorganisms all the time, calling humans stupid), & Dr. Vijayalakshmi a.k.a. Amah (she's long winded, but she's kind & good).

Pharmaceutical Inorganic Chemistry should actually interest me as it is a subject chemistry-based, but not in this case. Why? Because the lecturer, Mr. Sundram, makes it so terribly dry. I dread every lecture of this subject. No offence, but everytime I hear the lecturer's name, Sundram, I would think of underwear. It's just my honest experience, I have nothing against him.

Biochemistry... OMG... I should tremble listening to this subject's name. Sue Zin had her experiences with this subject. I do not like the name of this subject either, but still, I had to take it. There are too many lecturers for me to account for in this subject but there is this Datin Dr. Tham Sock Ying (Aunty Tham), a very dedicated aunty... I mean lecturer... She is a good lecturer, but she does have her mood swings (aunty ma...). Then comes Dr. Ong Kim Kok (King Kong) whose lectures are like an author introducing his works/books. Deviation from the topics do happen in his lectures mostly to his family. Others are like Dr. Diwakar & Dr. Shakila, Dr. Ravi & dunno who else la...

The last subject is Introduction to Computer Science & Statistics. Statistics... the name rings a bell. It reminds me of Biostatistics for Pharmacy, 2 years ago, one of the black chapters in my life. It started off with Biostatistics by Dr. Babuji (egg-tummied Babuji, last time there was an egg-headed Nelson), then later continued by some miss something for computer science. Many of my classmates mistook this subject for Computer Statistics even after the egg-tummied lecturer told the class that we are actually doing Biostatistics.

Those were the subjects & lecturers for this semester. What is more annoying is that, there was a selection of new class committee, & as usual, they followed the tradition of drawing lots. Mei Mei & Alex were drawn to be the one responsible for photocopying, Bernice for treasury. Liang Fatt switched with Alex for some reasons, & off all people, I ended up as the class representative.

Striking lottery or 4D were also not as accurate as this. This is the joke of the millenium. Desmond Tan Ghim Wei, the class representative for Batch 3 Pharmacy Degree Students.If I were to be the class rep, the class would be disorganised. I would not make a good class rep. I was not happy with it & I brought it up to the class to elect a new class representative but to no avail. What to do? Be as IRresponsible as I can lo...

Thursday, May 15, 2008

April Dilemma...

While waiting for the commencement of the new semester, I had some kind of 3 months holiday which I spent half of it quite meaninglessly. Anyway, in the month of April, especially April Fool's day, I was caught in a big dilemma.

29th March 2008 was the wedding night of my dear cousin Emily (look up in my photos section under "Emily & Ivan's Wedding" for the pics). That night was kind of a wonderful night to get together with family & relatives, but, of all places, it was held in Paradise Beach Hotel, & this was the third time a wedding function was held by a cousin of mine (previous 2 were Wei Leong & Gwendelyn). It was, as I've said, a wonderful night as I get to meet many people. However, it was kind of a big plus as we've got someone rare attending the dinner that night - James a.k.a. Ah Jian!!!

2nd April 2008 should be the wedding day of Emily, & I've applied leave to attend the ceremony. However, on the early morning of 1st April, I got a call from my mother saying that my uncle, Ah Keong, came out to Penang with his wife & 2 small kids. That was not the worst of the news yet. What was worse was that they were planning to go down south to Genting Highlands & I was directed by my grandmother to accompany them down there since my uncle & his family, being Thai citizens, couldn't speak Malay, English or Cantonese. They could hardly speak understandable Mandarin also, so I was needed to guide them here & there.

What could I do? Apply for more leaves lo... Ms. Ros, my department boss, was being very lenient to me as I was actually being too much. However, later that morning, my mother called me & said that my uncle said he felt that he can manage on his own, so I didn't have to follow them up Genting. So what? I cancelled my leave lo... I apologised to Ms. Ros & she said it was OK. Then during lunchtime, my mother called me again saying that my grandmother insisted on me guiding my uncle & his family up Genting. What was that? April Fool's game? My goodness. I went to Ms. Ros again & applied again. Thank goodness Ms. Ros was as lenient as she was earlier.

That evening, I went back Penang from SP straight away after work. I was to fetch my uncle from Queensbay Mall as they went there since morning, I guess. What actually worried me was the infamous Penang Bridge after-work jam that occurs everyday around 6 - 8 p.m.. I was actually quite lucky to reach there before six, & I was rather happy to see the tolls not being congested. However, as I passed the toll, there was a sudden congestion. Though it was a bottle-neck, but the congestion was too great & sudden. What else could it be? ACCIDENT!!!

I slowly drove my father's Kelisa bumper to bumper until I reach the middle of the bridge where the accident took place. At least I drove a Kelisa & I could squeeze through gaps easily, like every other Penangites would do, & I got through the jam quite fast. Then the traffic went smoothly until I reach Queensbay Mall. I was delighted to see my uncle & his family, but at the same time, I felt sad too as I couldn't attend my cousin's wedding ceremony.

I was told by my mother that my grandmother asked me to accompany my uncle up Genting & my grandmother had even gave RM500 to compensate my expenses up Genting. My uncle was amused at that & he said that, of course he would take care of my expenses in Genting. So, I had to go up Genting with them the following day, which means I had to cancel my plan to attend my cousin's wedding ceremony.

That night, I had a quarrel with my cousins. I had no choice. Some stupid granduncle of mine was too 'kiam siap' to take my uncle up Genting although he could go instead of me going. My grandmother & uncle does not know anything about my cousin's wedding (my uncle is from my mother's side while the wedding cousin is from my father's). My cousins put the blame on my uncle & grandmother saying that Genting they can go up anytime but wedding is just only once. I know this also. I'm not stupid. But I can't do anything. I'm too indebted to my grandmother. It is true that anyone can get up to Genting at any other time, but my uncle came all the way out from Thailand. He haddn't been out since the last 7 years. All were happening at the same time. Wrong timing. I couldn't blame anyone but myself.

When I said I would accompany my uncle up Genting, he gave a sigh of relief. So the next morning, I went up Genting with my uncle & his family though I did not express my dissatisfaction to them. It wouldn't be nice. I would had refused to accompany them to Genting if he were the other uncle, but this uncle took good care of me when I was in Thailand. Emily had many other cousins & relatives to attend her wedding, but over my uncle's side, I was the only one available. If Emily & the other cousins would think badly of me, then I have no choice also.

We were up in Genting for 3 days 2 nights. First day was all theme park experience. My grandmother called me at night to check on how things were going on. As usual, elderly people would talk on this & talk on that. She even warned me not to allow the 2 little kids to ride the roller-coaster as they might be traumatised. I answered: sure thing. Little did she know that those 2 little kids had already rode the roller-coaster more than twice & were laughing all the way, begging for more. My aunty was more adventurous than my uncle. My uncle was reluctant to ride the roller-coaster at first but after some encouragement from me, he took 2 rides & enjoyed it. My aunty took the 'Solero Shot' ride & many other rides that even I dared not take.

The second day of the trip, we divided into 2 groups. My aunty & the kids would spend their day in Genting's indoor theme park while my uncle & I went down to KL Low Yat Plaza to be exact, as he loves computers very much. It was a good thing I was there because, he wouldn't know how to get down to KL from Genting. Furthermore, my uncle knows little Mandarin & couldn't speak Cantonese at all. So if I wasn't there, then he might not have the chance to get to Low Yat. Even my memory was a bit rusty. I forgot the monorail station name of Times Square. I told my uncle that and he laughed at me, but I told him I could still recognise the place.

As usual, I was the translator there in Low Yat, just like he was my translator back in Thailand. Long we window-shopped but we bought nothing. Then he asked me whether I want the bluetooth headset. I just said: its OK, not necessary. Then he took me to get one. He let me choose whichever one I want. So? I just chose an ITech bluetooth headset worth RM465 over a Sony Ericsson bluetooth headset worth RM365. Hmm... not really that bad, I thought.

I was so near to my dear CB-Sakai Gang but I had not the time to visit them. I went back up Genting right after the visit to Low Yat, but at least I grabbed something for someone special. Who is it? K lo... haha... Back to Genting, the kids were playing happily. Then at night, I went to the casino with my uncle. Well, what do you expect? Lose lah... RM1000 gone just like that.

The next day, we came back to Penang & the rest of the days my uncle were in Penang were spent with visiting relatives. I took my uncle to visit his brother, my money uncle, & we had dinner together at Eden restaurant, which I ordered without looking at the price since it was the money uncle who would foot the bill. Later on, we went to Hagen-Dazs for ice-cream.

After a week of luxury, then I was back to work after my uncle left Penang. I saw my cousin's wedding ceremony's photos & found that it was not really that bad after all. So the April dilemma wasn't really a bad thing after all.

Sunday, March 23, 2008

The Return of DesBow, Elf of the Golden Wood & Pharmacotherapy II - Flight of the Elf...

There was nothing much to do after the KL trip. I had been quite moody after the trip. My parents, especially my mother, does not understand how I feel. She sarcastically keeps on commenting about how grateful I should be, this and that. Nevermind that. Anyway, I got my foundation results not long after I visited KL & it turned out to be fine. I was definitely qualified for Pharmacy. Of course I applied immediately.

Then I was off for Redang with my parents for holiday, and it should be a wonderful time, but one thing spoilt all the good mood – I was not selected for Pharmacy degree intake. Thanks Ms. Tanusha, you’ve made me a failure! I was qualified for every programme in AIMST but thanks to you, you’ve made Pharmacy further away from me! Thank you for putting me under Medicine & Dentistry. CIPOT TANUSHA!!!

Redang Island’s waters were clear & the marine life there was really beautiful. But since my camera was not functioning properly, then I could not take any of those beautiful scenes.

Back to AIMST, I made a visit back to AIMST with my mother this time. The CIPOT TANUSHA was really terrible, her lies sounded true, but they were not. She lied that those who got into Pharmacy had superb results & my results were way below theirs. CIPOT TANUSHA, how long do you want to lie? You’re such a B*TCH! Even Dr. Rashid bulshitted that the selections were done based on merits. I got into Pharmacy nonetheless, thanks to Cindy’s help.

I was kind of happy to get into Pharmacy, yet again, late. Just like last time. I was like alone in the class for some time until I got to know a few friends: Shi Yun, Ada, Eddy, Mei Mei, & Liang Fatt. The lectures were OK overall & the lecturers were good & dedicated. The class, as usual, typical pharmacy students. What to do? Gotta bear with it for another three years plus. Along the way, many funny things do happen among the students. My birthday was celebrated at small scales, thanks to various people.

The examination was not really difficult. It was quite easy to pass (I mean the core subjects). After the examination, I was to work with my aunt, Gaik Bee. Well, the pay was not really high, at RM 25.00 per day, & the workload, OMG... from babysitter to driver, from maid to maid guardian, from gardener to market aunty, from factory operator to office clerk, etc. All also I gotta do, pau snua pau hai (cover mountain cover sea)...

Chinese New Year this year was kind of usual but this time, I helped my grandmother more. As usual, I would go over to Uncle Tin Tin’s place to stay as it was nicer & cleaner there. This year, no bombs there. There was also a reunion dinner on the third day of Chinese New Year with the siblings of my father but this year’s Chinese New Year was a bit special as also I attended another dinner where I met Jon. Though the meeting was short but it was lovely.

Zen Chia was with me throughout the whole of these time. Hair-do-ing together, go for movies together, Chai Leng park together, & many other nonsenses. Without her, life here in SP & Penang would be like short of an essence. Of course, after Chinese New Year, I stopped working with aunt Bee as I cannot bear with it anymore. My parents were not happy about it but I’m not about to suffer doing something I don’t enjoy just to please other people.

The Return of DesBow, Elf of the Golden Wood & Pharmacotherapy I - Pick Up From Where I Left Off...

It has been nearly one year since I last blogged, and now, I'm back with many changes, not in my writing, but in my life.Many things happened within this 7-8 months and I'll try to account on them as detailed as possible. I last wrote on my visit to KL on July/August 2007, and I did not finish the story. Had I the urge & time to do so, I would, but at that time, the time & things wouldn't allow me to do so, so I should try to account back on the things that took place then.

Forgive me if I fail to mention anything or left out anything since it was at least 7 months ago since I made this return visit there. In the last blog, I left out my Connaught CIMB bank trip to cancel my CIMB account as I am no longer staying in KL. The trip reminded me of the time I journeyed to the bank together with Christopher to open an acocunt for PTPTN loan when I was still in Medicine. Also, other trips to make bank drafts to pay for Pharmacy degree fees & stuff like that.

I forgot exactly what happened on the subsequent days ahead but I remembered that I did make a trip to 1 Utama. I guess it would be day 3, Thursday, the 19th of July 2007. Phiaw Chong & Qiu Ping wanted to go along, & since they were in Setapak & I was in Cheras, we planned to meet at Masjid Jamek Putra Line LRT station, since to get to 1U, I had to switch from STAR Line LRT to Pura Line LRT. I was supposed to have lunch with the CB-Sakai Gang, but there was a slight misunderstanding, & I went up the UCSI van & headed to the LRT station without their knowledge because I thought they had no plans to have lunch with me. Suddenly Super Leng Lui called me, then I explained everything to her. I was off to Masjid Jamek LRT station & I met Phiaw Chong & Qiu Ping there. We then continued our journey to 1U.

Upon reaching, we should be heading for lunch first but we stopped by Padini store. There were a few clothes that caught my eye, & the pricing was also very attractive, but sadly, no size that was suitable for me was to be found. What I remembered was that we had lunch in Chili’s. It costs quite a lot but it was kind of worth it. The food tastes nice & the portion was large also. Somehow, after lunch, I bought a hideous shirt from Zero Hour which costs about RM 20.00.

The interesting thing about that day was that that night, I tried to take a bus from Bandar Tasik Selatan LRT station back to Connaught. I boarded the wrong bus which led me to Cuepecs. It was my first time there thought I’ve driven past somewhere near there before. I called Super Leng Lui for help. She was with her boyfriend. Oh, how disturbing, she might be sweetly having an intimate time with him when suddenly my call interrupted. She came with her boyfriend in her Little Red Kancil of course.

The following day, I guess I went to Sungai Wang with Phiaw Chong again. This time, Qi Xian & her youngest sister, Wen Ying, came together. I guess it was the second time Phiaw Chong went to Sungai Wang. Nothing much happened, but since Sue Zin’s place was not really suitable for me to stay too long, so I planned to go over to Qi Xian’s place to stay Sunday onwards.

Saturday had nothing on, but I guess we went to meet up with Kai Liang & Qiu Ping, then we went to the Eye on Malaysia at night. Then on Sunday, I had breakfast with Xiang Bin before having lunch with Super Leng Lui, Sue Zin & her boyfriend in Leisure Mall. Afterwards, we went to Mid Valley again. This time, I bought a light purple t-shirt. I liked the colour very much. After that, at night, I went over to Qi Xian’s place with Phiaw Chong’s guidance. If I’m not mistaken, Phiaw Chong went to Sungai Wang again to meet his friends.

I met Phiaw Chong at the Wangsa Maju LRT station then we took a bus to Qi Xian’s house. On the bus, someone missed call me a few times. It was Louis. Actually, in the LRT itself he already started to miss call me. I had no idea why he did that. Anyway, upon reaching Qi Xian’s house, of course I had to greet the people there. Qi Xian’s parents were very nice. Wen Ying was also there. Since her parents were Hokkien, I spoke Hokkien with them.

That night, Louis chatted with me via MSN & I found out that he saw me in the LRT that I boarded. He blamed me for not calling him. He was behind me in the LRT, just behind me, but he did not call me. Even on the bus, we were on the same bus, and yet again, he did not call me. He was again behind me. So tell me, how was I to realise that he was there if my eyes were in front?

The following days in Setapak were quite fun. We went places like Sunway Pyramid: which reminds me of my first meeting with someone & the first time I had lunch with Jason in KL, Green Box Karaoke: sang out my joys & sorrows, Steven’s Corner Pandan Indah: always there with Max, & Bandar Tun Razak’s lake: too many memories to account.

Then it was time to leave KL. It was not good at all. The feeling was heavy & dreary. Things I don’t expect happened after I reach Penang. However, what is there that I can do? I had to move on. The past is gone, I must move on.

Healers of Life...

Healers of Life...

Waterflowers of Osgilliath...

Waterflowers of Osgilliath...