Goodbye to year 3... I'm kinda glad this semester as well as this year is over, but I'm not happy that I've gained a year older too :(... Well, the third year in this course is not an easy one for me. The first semester was hell!! I was distracted by some people, trying too hard to blend in with them, and in the end, I flunk my exams. The second semester was in a way relatively better but never much improvement.
Academically, this semester required us to take 5 subjects altogether: Pharmaceutical Analysis, Hospital Pharmacy, Pharmacology III, Applied Therapeutics, and Research Project. Hospital Pharmacy was supposedly a subject I should like, however, it was boring and somehow not too much of my type of subject suddenly. Pharmacology III, as expected, I love it. This time, it focused on CNS Pharmacotherapy & Antimicrobial Therapy. Pharmaceutical Analysis is the subject I dread most as it is the most technical & most industrial in this semester. Last but not least, the 4-credit-hour sinister Applied Therapeutics... You can say that I like it but I'm not good in it. Imagine, having to study all in one semester while UCSI students study Pharmacotherapy I & Pharmacotherapy II in 2 separate semesters...
4 packs big, 2 packs small + heh ci + poh pia
White Queen Laksa
Heh ci + Poh piaWhat's worse, the Princess blamed us for not being serious and not being responsible to go to the hospital even during weekends. I was even told by the pharmacist that we should adhere to closely to the statement that we only to go to the pharmacy to collect our data according to the application letter that was stated 3 days a week. How nice, during weekends, the pharmacists are not around, so how are we supposed to access the database? Moreover, there was only one pharmacist kind enough to help us - the Clinical Pharmacist, Ms. Chai Nyen Chiaw. There were some "windy" pharmacists as well who were those typical high-heels wearer, with curly Maggi-type permed hair with a big queenly attitude. Approach them on a bad windy weather and you'll end up in the tornado vortex. There was also one legendary fierce & fearsome ICU pharmacist called Ms. Tang Yi Woei, though she could be friendly sometimes. Strict I should say.
Actually, the Princess didn't really guide us on what to do, so we just relied on books to tell us about drug interaction, yes, it was her idea to conduct this research. All our ideas were rejected completely and totally. We had no other choice but just to keep up with her nonsense. Frankly speaking, I do not really know what I was doing until the end of the research. We ended up doing the research badly according to Mr. Nazeer Ali. During the presentation, we were shot with many unanswerable questions because we were not well prepared. It was our first time doing such a research and Mr. Nazeer Ali was right about us not knowing what we were doing. The only thing I learnt from this were just some simple drug-drug interactions and that we were supposed to do more reading. Also, one "BIG" secret I found out from this research is that, our beloved Princess does not know anything about research, let alone therapeutics and unit-dosing.
The research did actually help me answer a 1-mark question in my Applied Therapeutics final exam, that is the interaction between a sulphonylurea and beta-blocker.
Chinese New Year 2010 was quite a relaxing one for me as I didn't have to do too many things XD. Also, I did not have to visit too many relatives. Reunion dinners were as boring as usual but mahjong is a different story XD. I skipped quite a lot of lectures during the 15 days of CNY. This year, instead of my mother, I invited some of my good friends for "makan" during the 7th day of CNY. My parents were off to Thailand to help my grandmother to pray to "Thi Kong" while I remained here hosting the feast. No pictures to show yet because Ms. World hadn't send me the pictures we took that night. Anyway Ms. World & Dr. Machine Lim were there, Ms. Earth and Ms. Global were also there. Not forgetting Chin Leng, Keat Suk Suk & Auntie Yang. My cousin, Pang Har was also there. Pang Har & I left for a while in the middle of the feast to attend our nephew's birthday. Other CNY activities include going to Chew Jetty with Ms. World & Dr. Machine Lim, praying "362" ("Kwan Imm Mah" - Goddess of Mercy) and also "Tua Pek Kong" ("007"), watching all CNY movies with Pang Har (best of them were 72 Tenants of Prosperity & 14 Blades), went Raja Uda to pray "Tuu Boh Kong" with Ms. World and Auntie Yang.
Tua Pek Kong amm
Chew Jetty
pai Thi Kong... cheng sim lo... XD
Ms. World & Auntie Yang on ferry to BW...
Delicious Raja Uda Chicken Rice... must try...Life outside academics were dull as usual. Well, what do you expect in SP and in AIMST? My best friend had to "pang har" (放下) me and go to Alor Star for her final year. Even more difficult for me to live my life. Hence I went back to Penang every weekend except for one weekend only. However, there were some good-looking juniors and new intake students nonetheless :p but no use - can see cannot touch. Life with coursemates were as usual. I still couldn't forget the wounds inflicted by two people I initially trusted and had high views upon. It took me one month to forget them during my semester break in January 2010, however, it was revived unintentionally by one of my few remaining close friends in AIMST. Couldn't blame anyone except me. I expected it to be personality disorder or bipolar disorder but I was diagnosed by Dr. Machine Lim of having mild depression. Still, life during that semester was more enjoyable than the previous - having duck rice at "569 Street", laksa at Shell Petrol Station, Hakka Mee, and "How To Train Your Dragon" with 2 of my close friends.
During this period of time, I was also romantically involved in a relationship with someone, but I ended it because it was a love triangle. Depression starts thereafter. I know I'm not good looking nor attractive and my age is catching up on me. For people of my path, life stops after 30, hence if I don't find someone soon, I'm gonna end up dying alone by myself. What is worse, each person I fall for seems to either been attached or attached one day right before I pop the question. I need to talk to someone about this, but nobody is going to listen. Nor can they understand what I'm going through. They are either too absorbed in their own sorrows or doesn't even care a single bit. I even got flares and teases as a reward from various people including my coursemate and my junior. Dr. Machine Lim, prescribe me some medications please?
This song is dedicated to my PTYC... If I had the chance, I would sing you this...
我这里天快要黑了那里呢我这里天气凉凉的那里呢
我这里一切都变了我变得懂事了
我又开始写日记了而那你呢
我这里天快要亮了那里呢
我这里天气很炎热那里呢
我这里一切都变了我变得不哭了
我把照片都收起了而那你呢
如果我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是深爱着对方
像开始时那样
握着手就算天快亮
我们现在还在一起会是怎样
我们是不是还是隐瞒着对方
像结束时那样
明知道你没有错
还硬要我原谅
我不会原谅我怎么原谅
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