Oh no... First eruption in AIMST in just 2 months...

Things come and go like a flash of light. I never thought I would erupt so soon in AIMST. On Monday, there was a Chemistry lab session. As usual, Ken, Khim Yik and I would sit on one bench. On this day we had to do two experiments giving up to a total of three titrations to do. Ken suggested that he and Khim Yik would do the first two acid-base titrations while I do the second redox titration which involves the preparation of a solution of iron(II) ammonium sulphate. I agreed. When we wanted to tell Khim Yik our plan, Khim Yik told us his plan first. He asked Ken and I to do the one experiment while he and Vicky would do the second one.

I was kind of surprised to learn that Vicky is suddenly in our group. I told Khim Yik in a group, there can only be three members and the session before, I had already given our group memebers' names to Ms. Yuvarani, our lecturer and Vicky, obviously had already had his own group. Khim Yik said it is OK to have four people in our group but he would not listen. Ken told him also. Then he asked the lecturer. Then only he believed.

He asked Vicky to join Thomas, who was alone, but Vicky didn't want to. According to Khim Yik's explanation, he didn't want to make Vicky feel isolated, so he actually wanted to ask me to join Thomas instead. He did not explain to me his intention and he just plainly said: 'Why not you join Thomas?' Of course, hearing that without knowing his intentions, I got very angry! I thought, why should I leave the group because of a new member that you're bringing in? I felt chased away. I was very angry. I could have shouted but if I did, the lab session wouldn't be a nice one and it wouldn't run and end smoothly. I kept it to myself.

I came home that day and turned on the pc and chatted with a newly made friend. He had a strange name, or at least strange to my ears: Nelvin, or maybe he might have mistyped it. He lightened up my day and life a little. But Tuesday came and the whole morning, I was really hurt. Everytime I see Khim Yik's face or recall the incident, I felt a rage of fire in me and of pain in my heart! I spoke to Hui Ci, but in the end, I yelled telling her how I felt. Later that day, Khim Yik confronted me and everything was made clear then. I had a meeting with Zen Chia and we exchanged stories and we talked about Jason's birthday, and I suggested to pao angpow again... hahaha...

Today was another dreadful day. I roared at Hanis in the car because I told her not to touch the radio but she kept on switching it on... Haih... My new found friend is in KL. Everyone is in KL. Everything is in KL. This is what I have to pay for what I did in the past! I am doomed...