一千年以后

Well, I'm adapting to life at AIMST... basically, what I learn there are most what I've already learnt save Physics. Chemistry... muhaahahahaha... I am going to master Chemistry there thanks to my love for the subject and Dr. Thet: Chichibabin Reaction... Biology... Well, some basic cell biology and physiology I'm already quite familiar with, thanks to year 1 Pharmacy and Ms. Wong Kuan Yau... Other than that, everything is well... I even prayed to the hungry ghost spirits during the middle of the 7th moon, in AIMST Semeling Campus...

Haih... She left... My great grandmother... she left... but it is also a good thing... she need not suffer any longer... the 14th of August 2006 would be her funeral and all of us have to wear red as she is over a hundred years of age... She left on the 10th of August 2006 at around 9:40 a.m. and at that time, I was on my way to AIMST to attend Mr. Hoe's lecture. I had a funny feeling inside me and I felt like my stomach was not comfortable, but it wasn't because of stomachache. I ignored that feeling though I should have figured out something happened to my great grandmother as the night before, my mother mentioned in her e-mail that my great grandmother was back to the condition when she was in the hospital and Aunt Gaik Bee told me that my great grandmother was in critical condition. I had in mind that that weekend, I would want to go back and pay her a visit.

However, on that evening itself while waiting for Mr. Temudhu to start his lecture, my cousin, Chu Chai, called me and asked for my mother's mobile phone number. I gave him her number without further thinking what may the cause be. After ending the call, something bothers me suddenly. I began to think: why did he asked for my mother's mobile phone number? They could have easily called her office number, and my mother seldom uses her mobile phone. She hardly switches on her phone. So, I sent Chu Chai an SMS saying that he could reach my mother by calling to her office, and in that message, I asked him what was going on. As I suspect, Chu Chai replied:

Guess you still don't know...

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Great grandma has gone up to heaven to find great grandpa...

I asked when she left and they said in the morning. She drew her last breath when I felt uneasy... I was stunned though expected. I could not describe on what I was going through that time. My vision widened but everything seemed to blend into 2-dimention. The chattings and screamings of my classmates in the lecture hall began to fade as if blending to a standard volume regardless of the loudness and distance. I felt light instead of heavy. She left... I didn't get to see her on last time. Friday came and I went back to Penang and I gave Chew Weng a lift to Penang to his aunt's place. I went to Pulau Tikus straight away and I saw that some people were already there. Gwen helped me with the joss stick and Aunt Bee Choo asked me whether I would want to look at great grandma. I looked into the coffin and saw a familiar face. Instead of a dead person's face, I saw an old lady sleeping peacefully. There was no fear in anybody's eyes. I attended the ceremony which lasted for five days. only the second night and the fourth night was I there. I planned to attend her funeral on Monday, 14th of August 2006 but my father said it doesn't matter since I have already paid respect to her on the second and fourth night. He insisted on me going back to Semeling to study, but I don't feel so... She loved me, though not the most but she still loved me. She had been over a hundred years old and she was my last existing great grandparent.

Her funeral was different from the usual black and white ones. Since she was over a hundred years old, all have to wear red and all shall not cry. However, before parading, the band played the 'Mother' song and some started crying. I found it hard to hold back my tears also. Then came the parade. I was to drive my car in case my grandfather couldn't walk further and my task was to fetch him as well as my grandmother and grandaunt. Everything came to an end though and after the funeral and cremation, all paraders have to head back to Pulau Tikus for 'cleansing'. After cleansing, we went back home and I travelled back to SP, ready for the next day's class in AIMST.

So passes my great grandmother...

心跳乱了节奏
梦也不自由
爱是个绝对承诺不说
撑到一千年以后
放任无奈淹没尘埃
我在废墟之中守着你走来
我的泪光承载不了
所有一切你(需)要的爱
因为在一千年以后
世界早已没有我
无法深情挽着你的手
浅吻着你额头
别等到一千年以后
所有人都遗忘了我
那时红色黄昏的沙漠
能有谁
解开缠绕千年的寂寞。。。