Pening!~ Pening!~ Woo~

Saturday 17th June 2006. It has been 24 hours since I last heard Jean's voice. Hope he is not angry and is having a great time with his friend... hehe... Yesterday, I visited the doctor in Lam Wah Ee hospital. Stupid doctor, ask him to give me Amoxicillin he doesn't want! Give me a more expensive one! Haih... When I paid and collected the medication, my mother scolded me again. She said the medications were available at home and I should have only requested for the antibiotic Erythromycin. Come on la! First, hey! I am sick ok? Don't simply scold scold scold! Second, I didn't know that those medications are available at home! I just came back from KL for a month only! Third, you scolded me once when I told the doctor that we have this and that at home! NOW WTF?!!! PENING!!!

At night, couldn't sleep... Online until 1 a.m. then went to sleep. 4 a.m., woke up to take medication. I felt nauseated and I vomited not only once, but twice! The other time was at around 5:30 a.m.. I suddenly felt hungry, so I cooked instant noodles and ate at 6 a.m.... what a breakfast. Then I took another can of 100plus. Then after that, I went back to my room to read a novel. Suddenly my mother came in asking me how I felt and I told her I'm fine. She asked me whether I need someone to accompany or not, I told her no need. I have been alone all the times and even when I am sick in KL, I was alone, always. Then I slept. The phone rang at 10 a.m. and I would have ignored it but I was afraid it might be from my mother. If I did not pick up the call, not only she would be angry but worried, so I exerted myself to pick up the call... and it was really from her... 謝天謝地。。。 But... I couldn't sleep anymore and my head is like spinning round and round... just like a drunken crane... aiyoh! PENING!!!

Sometimes, I wonder why I always choose the harder way of life when life could be simple. When I looked back, I realised, there were many simpler paths I could have taken but I chose tougher ones... I felt so stupid. I could have done London Modular A-Levels but I went to Form 6. I got an offer in UMS for Industrial Chemistry but I chose to remain studying Pharmacy. Of all courses, I chose to do Pharmacy (with my CGPA like this, how dare I!). I chose Pharmacy over Medicine - stupid! Of all sciences, my favourite is Chemistry - stupid! So difficult still I can love the subject so much!!! Learning music... why did I choose the Violin... the second hardest instrument to learn... why I love the Violin so much? aiyoh... so lame... Not regrets, but felt a bit stupid.... arghhh! PENING!

ah! PENING PENING PENING PENING!!!!!!!!!